Sunday, October 21, 2012

Something weird is going on....

This could be my imagination but something weird is definitely going on with my body right now. My boobs have been seriously hurting for about a week, I have fatigue every morning (even though I've been eating healthier than I ever have in my whole life), and my back pain is really getting to me. Plus, I have some of that same white discharge and "down there" wetness that I had when I was pregnant in January.  But I'm still trying to figure out if that could be my imagination.

I had my period on 9/27, and I think I ovulated on 10/11. So I'm not due for my period for another few days.

I don't want to take a pregnancy test because it seems like, whenever I take them too early, I just want to kick myself. Something about seeing that damn "negative" test tends to make me go, "damn, not again!" and it kind of seals it in my head that i am definitely not pregnant, and it's just not going to happen that month. And that anxiety just can't be good for a pregnancy, no matter what stage  you're in. So I feel like I should wait a little while. 

I will admit, I've been taking FertilPlus again... for about a month. But I'd taken it before, and it took me a few months to get pregnant and show any symptoms. So... I guess I'll have to just see how this goes. I'm really ok with not being pregnant this month, but it would be nice if it happened sometime in the next 6 months : ). I just started eating super duper insanely healthy about a month ago, so ideally it'd be nice to be that healthy, for about 3 months before conception.  So in this case, waiting a little while could be a benefit. 

Will let you know how it goes!

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