OK I confess, I went ahead and took a pregnancy test...

Who was I kidding, that I'd be able to wait another five days to take a test?? LOL!

Well, it was negative. Not even the SLIGHTEST trace of pink on the "second line." That's what I get for letting myself obsess over it!  But I can't say I blame myself. Something weird IS going on with my body... maybe it's just from the FertilPlus, but... I don't remember my boobs feeling this big, or sore, when I took the stuff before. It's true, I do remember going running with some girl friends after taking the supplements, and thought, "ow."  Like they hurt a little more than usual. But... they feel like freekin water balloons right now. And it hurts of something brushes against them or my husband touches them in the wrong way.  I also have that weird discharge thing going on, plus the back pain and OMG the fatigue. I don't get it. I am eating soooo healthy right now (AND exercising) so I feel like, the last thing I should feel is fatigue. 

Well, the last time when I took a pregnancy test, I didn't really notice symptoms (that I remember or took notes on) till almost 30 days after my period started. So if that's the case with me, I have another 4 days to go.  It's just that... when i took the test, 30 days into my cycle, that second line on the pregnancy test got SO red, so dark, so fast... you'd think that if I were feeling this many symptoms at this point, I'd at least see SOME kind of line... even if it's really light pink?  But... no dice.

Ah, well. Like I said, if it doesn't happen this month, at least I feel good about being able to keep up with the health kick I'm on. I'm eating a TON of vegetables, and taking my vitamins regularly... including extra CoQ10, to improve the quality of my eggs. I'd been slacking there for a while. I actually misplaced my "pill minder" and used that as a bad excuse to not take my supplements regularly (although I kept up with the Visalus Vi-Pak most days, I didn't take many additional things I normally would, like extra Vitamin D, folate, CoQ10, or garlic). 

If I'm going to have a kid, I want it to be the healthiest kid possible. So I'm going to do my best to go all out, to improve my health over the next few months. It's now or never, baby!

Something weird is going on....

This could be my imagination but something weird is definitely going on with my body right now. My boobs have been seriously hurting for about a week, I have fatigue every morning (even though I've been eating healthier than I ever have in my whole life), and my back pain is really getting to me. Plus, I have some of that same white discharge and "down there" wetness that I had when I was pregnant in January.  But I'm still trying to figure out if that could be my imagination.

I had my period on 9/27, and I think I ovulated on 10/11. So I'm not due for my period for another few days.

I don't want to take a pregnancy test because it seems like, whenever I take them too early, I just want to kick myself. Something about seeing that damn "negative" test tends to make me go, "damn, not again!" and it kind of seals it in my head that i am definitely not pregnant, and it's just not going to happen that month. And that anxiety just can't be good for a pregnancy, no matter what stage  you're in. So I feel like I should wait a little while. 

I will admit, I've been taking FertilPlus again... for about a month. But I'd taken it before, and it took me a few months to get pregnant and show any symptoms. So... I guess I'll have to just see how this goes. I'm really ok with not being pregnant this month, but it would be nice if it happened sometime in the next 6 months : ). I just started eating super duper insanely healthy about a month ago, so ideally it'd be nice to be that healthy, for about 3 months before conception.  So in this case, waiting a little while could be a benefit. 

Will let you know how it goes!